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The end?

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I'm probably won't be active in the FNAF fandom at all from now on. I was thinking about rewriting and continuing the controversial Fnaf fafic that started it all, but just thinking on it gives me anxiety attacks. I originally wanted to write it until PG dies (and those who accuse me of drawing killing children... I killed their killer a lot more than his victims).

I'm not a groomer. I'm not a pedophile. I talked about the fanfic with young fans and allowed them to read it, which wasn't right. Some, like PhantomFoxy aka Freb00 was literally obsessed with me and sent me a lot of messages, and I sadly interacted with her a lot.

I have no sexual interest in children though, it disgusts me that total strangers of the other end of the world think of me like that. I grew up as the eldest sister of 3 younger siblings and later two stepsiblings. I always had younger kids around and I got tired of them I guess, didn't want to have kids around as an adult. I'm only interested in guys older than me, and even then, I have a very low sexdrive, I might be asexual (I'm not completely sure what this term covers).

I haven't touched the fanfic when I finished it, and rereading it recently yeeeah... it was a lot more dark and disturbing than I remembered. It was 65 pages long and 6 from it was filled

with violence (and there were some description of erection and masturbation, which real serial killers often do while killing or thinking of killing). Those should be shortened or completely left out, I see it now. I wanted to write a character study of a killer and his victims, which ended up being a lot more disturbing than I intended. I wanted to write a realistic and interesting story which a lot of people loved (over 10k on Fanfiction.net), but also I hurt many who shouldn't read such dark stuff. Or at least I should have warned them. I really regret it now.

Some says it was "disturbing how personal the killers feeling was written, like she herself enjoys it" = pedo. Wrong: I wrote several shorter stories before, only in my native language though, and I ALWAYS immerse myself into the perspective of the main character. It might be one of my autistic traits (yes I am on the spectrum, as well having mental and physical disabilities), might be normal, but when I write, I feel like the point of view character is part of me, until I finish the story. I had main characters like an orphan girl raised by a witch trying to find her parents killer, assassin with lovecraftian upbringing, young woman who visits a mysterious old man and stands her ground against his weirdness, silly wizard who thinks too high of himself etc. So this Fnaf story is not an ode to my dark desires, all who see child erotica everywhere are the perverts themselves.

Also those who call me a transphobe: I'm not anymore. I might be 7 years ago when the concept was new to me, but I'm a lot more educated in this topic and even two friend of mine came out to me as LGBT (which they was afraid to tell me before, it made me really ashamed of myself). I'm still learning about genders and sexualities, it's not a simple topic. I truly regret my harsh words back then.


I hope the haters who believe everything they read on Twitter and willing to tell to a stranger to 'kill themselves' and call them 'pedophilic whore' will learn some day that they were wrong too. At this point, I'm really disgusted with the FNAF community but I chuckle at the thought that all who hates my arts don't realize that there are more stuff I made right before their eyes but they don't realize it was made by an 'untalented whore'...

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Moving on

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After not working in the FNAF franchise anymore, there will changes here. I'm not taking anymore chances of being a victim of misunderstood or false accusations, so here are my rules:


-This is an ADULT ONLY space. I will post arts and writings that are not for younglings.


-No more fanarts and fanfictions. I learned my lessons, I don't want to be in any popular and kid-friendly fandoms so then they can accuse me of pedophilia again because I write something dark and talk about it in private or in the comments with minors.


-If I find your comments hateful or immature, I will block you. I don't need haters and idiots, I don't have time for them.


-I might turn off comments all together, but even if I won't, I will not answer most comments and private messages. I don't need more misinterpretations and screenshots of my messages from the past, thank you.


I guess mosdt haters are not interested in me anymore after they got me fired, but I need to keep my place clear from shit.

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So this is the list that made people think I like lolicon and shotacon (without even reading the the rest of them. Lol, this was a wordlist I made at age 20 with my friends for a university project! We were working on a list of anime/manga words.

read the comments and learn some Hungarian before you immedaitley judge me (again) LOL. Or use Google translate.


And there was a little shit who wrote a long list of my alleged grooming on Deviantart: I don't even know who the fuck are you. BUT I do know that's definitely defamation.

I asked one person to edit my fanfic and I know who she is: not you.

Did I never replied to any of your dms and that made you angy? ooooh... Got your little 5 minutes of fame? Enjoy it, could be hard to came up with so many lies and type them in <3

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I woulsn't normally react to it, but just discovered I was permanently banned from the FNAF reddit because I'm a "nazi fetishist" now. After looking it up on Twitter, some bored nolife dug up my very inactive Deviantart and found N4zi fetish themed groups among my groups.


Yes, I joined those groups, that's very true. That was 15+ years ago, when I was 18-20 years old and just discovered anime/manga. Hellsing was one of the few mangas available in my language, it was brutal and I really liked it. I was super edgy back then and looked up everything with that design, dark uniforms, blood, evil characters, I loved it. It took me years I realize nazis are not edgy, but I totally forgot about the groups I joined, I was lazy too look up the groups I'm not active in anymore.


About the ped0 shit: I'm absolutely angry at those fucks who call me like that. I wrote a fanfiction of a man who was canonically a child serial killer, and I used my knowledge in crime novels (I read a lot) to create the murderers motives and personality. I went overboard a few times, at age 24-25, I still was edgy, and didn't feel what was too much. But so you know, murderer men do feel power and arousal when they kill, and they love it. That's why they do it. Some clearly can't differentiate fiction from reality.


I was also called a transphobe, which was sadly true. Note, taht was also years ago. I made some uneducatited and very angry, hurtful comments which I absolutely shouldn't have. I was stupid, not emphatetic. But I was also in an alltime low mentally and physically (I have Crohn's disease half in my lifetime, for 17 years now), and when I'm depressed, I'm angry and hostile. I had some trouble with my family too.


So I step back from the community even more. I love working with Scott, I still do btw, but as he does, so do I. I step back. Not as I didn't do that in the last few years but it is getting ridiculous.


Edit: and I'm not on DA that much that I have time to look up all the groups I were in. Some might not even exist anymore. I don't have time for thi. Get a life, lowlife, who has time to dig up dirt about people from several years ago they didn't even remember.

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Recently there were some confusions so I list all my accounts here:


Instagram: LadyFiszi

Youtube: LadyFiszi

Twitter: LadyFisziOfficial (I have no clue if I will use this)

Tumblr: unseelie_emese (I think but I'm not sure I can't access)


I'm probably on other platforms too but they are either abandoned or not art related so I don't list them here :)

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